this is the yaoi affair, the 5th grade chase, child’s play I guess… I’d rather watch people who are in love and profess it publicly than run after like Pepe la pew or Urkel, even; static, unrequited. I used to think love was easy to give and worth giving freely but it’s so easy to have expectation and missed connection you just end up with hurt feelings and sore thoughts. It feels like a useless reason to be disoriented and know that the other person seems to prefer remaining under developed in his capacity to care. meh. I need to whine every once in a while. Really though, If I could I would cry if it meant just getting over this interest for good.This is also that rare moment I am going to sort of publicly give a shit. I wish I could know in a finite sense my capacity to care. Maybe I’ll fill a bottle with flotsam or pennies to manage.. and buy a pint of haagen dazs as a consolation. A pint of Rum Raisin in a roasted orange skin to say bye.
Atoms and Human Neurobiology